Dropping the purpose!

Have you ever ponder when you want to repose into the self and dive into deep meditation what is that hold you back? Is your mind stuck in relationship, job, guilt, anger or pleasant memory of past actions or anxiety of future, money, fame, name, people etc? Why the mind is stuck there, why it can't detach itself and repose into the self? Why the mind is jumping like a monkey and never come to rest?

Let's explore it. What and where mind sticks to. Have you notice as compared to our dreams we give more value to our actions/words in waking state. Isn't it! why so? Simple reason there is strong sense in the mind for the purposefulness and permanency of the actions/words from waking state than those in dream state. We are much convinced that there is purpose for these things like your car/job/relationship/money which we see in wakeful state etc etc. While mind do not dwell much on the events happen in dream state as it is convinced that there is no purpose of all that in real sense. Isn't it! (Though you can dig purpose for dreams also and make them real for your life).

Now take this same observation more concrete world you keep getting things/events/people in your life which you feel serve some purpose in your life. Like you felt car will serve a purpose so you own a car and conversely also as soon as things/events/people loose their purpose, life move on from there. For instance as you grow up you don't feel much purpose of toys therefore the mind is not stuck there. Isn't it! (Just a caution here it could be very blunt and seems against our moral values but I will just suggest to digest it as it is before you brush it, as it's very subtle).

Now taking this to peak of experience, realize that you have no purpose here, whether to love, enjoy, serve, live, die, gaining good marks, earning money, name, fame, music nothing. What happens to the mind! ahoo... It doesn't seem to exist even more. Then can it go and dwell in past actions or is there room for future planning!? It come back to the source. In the same context I remember one verse from Sri Tripura Rahasya (XVIII:137)

The sense of duality persists because there is the conviction of the purposefulness of the objective world. But such purposefulness and even durability is experienced even in dreams.

Just drop all the purpose and relax in the self Now, anyway there is no purpose here!

All Glory to Gurudev!